Being a child :)

Dear Strawberry,


Awhile ago, I was browsing my childhood album. I saw every picture in that album and there is one remarkable photo of mine that bothered me and gave me an idea of composing a blog. It's all about being a child; being clueless of everything.

In that particular photograph, I was smiling widely while holding a brand new "PHOTO ALBUM".The story behind it is, I thought that ,that photo album was mine .. but then It wasn't, It's my brother's . He got it from one of his Ninong/Ninang in his baptismal. It was a present for him.

I spent the night holding that album, believing that it's mine and without them telling me that it wasn't for me. So everyday I browse the album, looking at it as if there's a picture on it.

Until one morning, the album was not at the place where I left it. I worked hard looking for it but sadly, I didn't find it.

The next morning I was shocked because I saw the album at the top of the drawer ... .. of my brother. I immediately grabbed it, quickly opened it and then I was like "huh?what's this".It was full of my brother's pictures when he was born and those pictures taken on his baptismal. I closed the book, put it back to where it belong and then I quietly left the room.

I really liked that photo album, treated it mine, and then noticed it wasn't.

At that very moment, I realized that, I cannot own everything especially those things that are really not mine. I learned that I can't just have it. I realized that a child really don't know what are they doing and I also realized that they really don't know what they're saying.

But that's the glory of being a child, Saying things without knowing what it is and doing stuffs without knowing what may happen as a result yet they're SERIOUS.

Yes, they may not know the meaning of words that comes out from their mouth but they do mean it, they may not know everything about the reality of life but in their world they do understand what they feel and do comprehend everything they see.

I have learned and realized that I'm not a child anymore, that I have to stop pretending that everything is mine, I'm not a child anymore so I must quit acting like one and it's not anymore proper for me to act like I'm clueless.

I'm already a grown up now. I can easily understand things, I can classify which thing is mine and which is not, and lastly, I can now explain; at least something to a child who's as careless and as clueless like me before.

-SpongeMauie